Chapter 42: Just a Couple of Thoughts

While walking around once, I crossed paths with two very playful children, running around. Seeing them coming, I did, of course, try to step aside, but unfortunately, clashed with the younger of the two instead, resulting in her tripping, and crying.

I know it was an accident, but I could not help but feel a little disappointed, that perhaps I might have made the choice of attempting to step away in a different direction. I could not help but think, that perhaps I was partially at fault.

I suppose I was, which I have to admit, but since I did not have any intention of wanting this unexpected event to happen, but instead chose to try to stop it from happening with the best of my judgements and actions at the time, would that mnake me a sinner? Maybe whether I am depends on the perspective from which it is portrayed.

I know this question does not have much significance for now... but it would be an added bonus to know the answer, as it does interest me a little.

That aside... these few days, I cannot help but wonder if some people are hopelessly selfish? Maybe it is simply my view from living around my fellow countrymen, and having little exposure to the rest of the world, so let us limit my views to say, majority of the people I have met at those times.

That said, my experiences have given me the impression that these people, including myself, deep down within, even if it be only a insignificantly small amount, are selfish thoughts.

After all... if I were to succumb entirely to this selfish part of me, I realised that my thoughts and views on life change. This next paragraph depicts these thoughts.

"I am only given one life, and in the end, am I not the only one who can look after it? Who is to say others would help me, if I were to do the same for them? No, the only trusted idea is that I would certainly be the only one who can look after myself in the end. Therefore, no good would come out of compassion. Let others help each other if they wish, I do not need to care at all. Even if the whole world dies off, what does it matter to me?"

But if I were to fully control my own mind, I obviously do not think this is entirely true. I know that we are all connected to this same world together, live and will die at the same place, and therefore, the key to surviving and building a truly enhanced life is to work together, and give care and compassion to each other.

But the point here is, no matter how many courtesy campaignes we hold, we do not strive to eliminate selfishness, but to supress it to desirable and helpful (of our current perspective, of course) levels.

That is about all, for now.