Chapter 95: Time to Transcend Infinity

Whenever I have to reflect, I realise that everyone has limits within their current knowledge of this world.

This may sound strange, but somehow, I feel that the world can be infinite. It seems to be growing everyday, not just in terms of time and space, but in the people and their movements. In this way, it seems almost impossible to comprehend this every growing database of the universe.

If there was an archive for the histories of the world, I believe it would not only be large beyond comprehension, but also growing without limit. Slow, perhaps, but without limit.

So if I, as well as others, were to stay within our circles of comfort and safety without summing up the courage to venture beyond and trudging on with that great journey, we would be missing out on a lot.

There is a whole endless road out there for us to explore. It is just a matter of being up to it.

True, certain things may seem dangerous and fearful, and we may not want to accept things that we cannot perceive comfortably and accomodate into the realities we know, but through taking the initiatives and attitude towards journeying into this huge world of ours, can we ever make our life meaningful and fruitful. If we refuse to enhance our growth and development in mind and spirit, than what use is this gift known as life?

Still don't believe me? Well, I suppose I have my own story to tell you.

For a long time, I had limited knowledge on the people within the campus. I used to think of all of them as selfish hypocrites with ignorant, naive ideals, refusing to acknowledge the comfortable unknown, but instead choosing to cover up and justify their actions and beliefs with 'noble' sounding excuses just to make them feel good and sooth the guilt.

Dragging chairs instead of lifting (utterly lazy and noisy), switching on laptops during lectures, smoking with public toilets, using 'colourful' words in their everyday conversations, burping outloud thinking it's funny and great, noisy beyond comparison in libraries, occsionally singing outloud and yelling in lifts when in a clique, having mentalities of taking lifts down and then going up (NYPians will know what I mean), bumping into others and just walking off without a word, having egos beyond comprehension, etc.

I had especially limited knowledge on Christianity, and probably still have.

But Singapore is a country with multiple backgrounds and religions, and to live in such a place, we have to be willing to learn and accept the various differences.

If I refused to learn more, I would only be judging by what I saw on the surface, shaped and modified by by my own biased perspective.

Well, I suppose it all began when I decided (I don't know what got into me) to step up to the Campus Crusade for Christ booth for the CCA open house at NYP 2010.

Honestly, I am not even sure I remember why despite being a non-Christian and non-believer for so long, I actually did that.

Soon, I begun attending various P.D.As one after another as an attempt to learn more about my fellow students who held such beliefs.

I saw no harm in it, and since it seem like a good way to spend time, I continued coming anyway, and joined a Disciple Group for that same reason. I started off with a blank, clean slate of an attitude and was determined to learn more from them.

Sometimes, I spent time talking to the members of that organisation.

I found that I had been mistaken.

And therefore, I had never regretted my decision on stepping up that day.

Indeed, I had nothing to lose, and through my experience, I learnt more about other students within the campus, includng their various individual thoughts and stories. Stories that I can take with me in my memories when I finally graduate.

The world is without limits. To transcend infinity? It's your choice.

"This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back. You take the blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes." - Morpheus, The Matrix (1999)

Until then.